Hi, I'm back!
I wasn't updating for the past few days because I'm having my tests and exams!!!
Remember in one of the previous post i mention about friends and friendship?
Actually, there is a reason behind it...
I blog about it because I was really hurt, confused, sad and depressed because of someone...
Back then...
U are/were my friend...
U treated me really warm,
U were very kind and friendly towards me,
U always talk to me,
U always sit beside me,
U always follow me around,
U always want me to be with you,
U always sms me,
U were sooo close to me that everyone misunderstood us as a couple,
U were sooo close to me that everyone thought that you admire me,
But now... What Happened???????????????
Really, WHAT HAPPENED???????????
What creates those changes in you?????
Y are u sooo COLD towards me?
Y are you sooo unfriendly towards me???
Y are you not talking to me anymore???
Y are you not sitting beside me anymore???
Y are you not following me around anymore???
y are you not smsing me anymore???
Y are you sitting beside another person???
Y are you treating her sooo warm and kind but not to me???
Y are you talking to her all the time but not to me???
Y are you always sitting beside her???
Y are you sooooo CLOSE to her NOW???
If the reason is because you like her, it's OK!!!
Really!!!
If that's the reason, it's really and perfectly FINE to me!!!
But you don't have to treat me as a stranger!!!
You're like a stranger to me now!
I seriously don't and couldn't understand why are you treating me in this way!
Aren't I'm your friend???
Yes??? No???
Please tell me why???
Is it because of what the others said about us???
Or what he said about us???
Is not that I have feelings for you...
Seriously I DON'T HAVE ANY FEELINGS FOR YOU!
I don't know whether you have any towards me though...
The reason I'm really sad is why are you treating me differently now???
We are FRIENDS rite???
ARE WE???
ARE WE STILL FRIENDS???
As I know, nothing has happened between us...
We didn't argue or fight, rite?
Everything is perfectly normal and fine!
Then, i couldn't remember when and how it started but you stopped talking to me already!!!
You don't even bother to say hi when you see me nowadays...
WHY????
PLEASE GIVE ME AN ANSWER, WILL YOU ???
I don't think you will though...
Sigh...I'm speechless... REALLY OUT OF WORDS!!!!
For I cannot and could not understand the reason why are you behaving in this way???
Do you know that I couldn't sleep because of you???
I feel very sad that you are sooo COLD towards me!!!
Are you a hypocrite???
Please tell me no...because I really take you as a good friend...
But, other than you as a hypocrite, I have no idea why and what's the reason/reasons that you've changed your attitude towards me...=_=
I just want you to know that I sincerely think and treat you as a real friend BEFORE!
the reason I said before is because I know that there's no chance for me to think and to treat you as one NOW.
I'm feeling extremely hurt and really confused of your attitude and behavior towards me NOW...
Do we have another chance to be friends again?
No, it should be when can you treat me as how you usually do???
Because we don't need a chance.
I haven't done anything wrong to you!
And most of all we're not enemies!!!
It's just you!
It's just you who changed!
NOT ME!!!
If you aren't willing to change back to how you used to treat me again...
Fine then, don't blame me for not giving you the response I used to when we're still close to each other as GOOD FRIENDS!
Let me tell you one last thing, if you're not treating your friends sincerely,then don't expect , think or even assume that you'll have TRUE FRIENDS!
It'll NEVER HAPPEN!!!
I was really sad because of you before this!
But now, I'm really ANGRY of you!
When I think back now, I feel so DUMB, SILLY and STUPID for treating you as a friend!
I should have ignored you earlier!!!
Eventhough, till now I still couldn't accept it, but I believe as time goes, I'll eventually erase you out of my mind automatically!!!
I believe that I'll find a REAL GOOD and GENUINE FRIEND one day!!!
Starting from now on, I will live my life the way i want it to be without having to feel the pain and sorrow you gave me and without having to care whether are we still friends or not!
It's over now!
Everything is over now!!!
To my dear readers,
I know I'm very emotional!
but please understand me...
it's not that i want to bore you or what...
what i have written up there, is what really happened to me!
only if you're in my shoes or facing the same situation as me you can understand how painful my heart is feeling,the sorrow, the bitterness, and how depressed i am before and even for now!
i know i said it's over but i'm still very sad and depressed!
i have became soo depressed that you can hardly see me smile nowadays!
Pathetic, right?
I seriously need COMFORT now!
Please SAVE ME OUT OF THIS DILEMMA!!!
ps:HELP!!! I'm dying...
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Hi. this is siew may... i dunno whether when u r gonna find out that i left a comment for u.. but i juz wanted to help. Does it make u feel better that u r not the only one having these kind of problems? i do.. yeah, really. theres this person and we were quite ok, like friends... i mean, i treat him as part of my group, u noe wad i mean. i really treated him as a good fren, there was one time i gave him a free ticket for a dinner which cost about 1000. (although he didnt go cuz sick) yeah, but well u can see. then exams were coming and he started not to speak to us girls already( my group concists of 5 girls and 5guys, including leann) i though it is becuz of exams, then he didnt come to school for a few days and i ask his friend n his friend said that his toe was hurt. so when he came back the day be4 yesterday, i didnt see him and i accidentally stepped on his leg. He like shouted to me in front of the whole class f*ck out and then i keep saying sorry but he ask me to get out of his vision. I felt very bad so i wanted to apologise again but he asked me to shut up. i thought it really hurt so i decided to wait till tomorrow. but he didnt forgive me at all. not even until today. so i decided not to waste my time feeling sad for someone that cant even forgive someone who stepped on his leg. it is not worth it. i treated him sincerely but he cant even forgive me. i mean, even if he stepped on my hurt toe, i would at least forgive him, becuz he said sorry and he is my friend! but he cant even do something like that. u see, things like this happen. I think if i were u, i would either forrget about him and get on with my life, or, get him or pull him or drag him (any way acceptable) to somewhere and force him to explain his actions and have a talk with him. BUt u see, frineds that leave u alone are not friends. I noe u miss the times that both of u were so close but it is over. over already. i also had an experience in primary school that i broke up with my best fren in the world and got on with another good fren which turned out to be better for me. i cried at home becuz seeing my ex-best fren being so nice n close to another person. but i moved on. u should move on too. get someone who is worthy of u, ok? ;)
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